Dear Friends,
I must let you know…it’s not always this bad. Since I was a small child, I have followed the same pattern. When I am sad, I write. When I am mad, I write. My journals are quite depressing. It is how I release my emotions.
The truth is this.... I have an amazingly helpful and supportive husband and three beautiful children. I serve an amazing God who has providentially placed amazing people in my life. So amazing that they made this walk a lot easier than the previous one. Many of you that have emailed me and messaged me only know me through the blog…you don’t see my silly antics and pictures on facebook. You don’t get to see me pushing my kids in swings and taking picnics and going fishing. You don’t get to see me when I do enjoy life…because then I’m too busy enjoying it and I don’t want to stop and write. I’ve received enough concerned response…I felt like I should let everyone know some things.
The truth is the first two or three weeks after I had my precious Anna, I didn’t cook a dinner because my sisters in Christ provided them for me. The truth is those same sisters have allowed me to borrow or offered their daughters to come allow me to rest. The support has been incredible and I praise God for His provision through them.
But, my previous two personal posts are still a reality. Hormonal things happen to many of us in varying degrees. I do have days when I am sad…but I also have very enjoyable days. Postpartum blues are a very strange thing to me. It is overwhelming at times when my little angel nurses that I am overtaken with sadness, tiredness, and nausea all at the same time. But praise God again! I have a dear friend that experiences the same thing and we can support each other.
I also believe it is a reality that having a 3 year old, a 2 year old, and a newborn…is HARD! And top that with postpartum blues and there is surely going to be tears. Wait, take away the postpartum blues and there is going to be tears! Especially, when there is intentional parenting involved.
So, friends, those who know me personally and those who don’t, thank you so much for your prayers and please keep praying…I need them. I’m sure many of your prayers were God’s means to make my days enjoyable.
Much love to you today!
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Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Monday, February 28, 2011
Still counting…
As we count down the days to 24, 23, 22… I find it harder to count the gifts. Not because I don’t see them, because I don’t have the energy to grab my pencil. I don’t have the energy to even pick up the book. So, I coast through this time knowing it is a season and it won’t be long before my blessings and gifts are counted in abundance. It won’t be long before she is here and I wonder what number she will be? And until then…I count slowly…
11. Pitter patter of feet in the early morning hours
12. A stranger praying for Anna Lee
13. Naps…much needed naps
14. Sister and brother making each other laugh…
15. Sister and brother laughter making this tired momma smile
16. Blessings, both needed and wanted, provided when we just wait
17. Dinner guests and great conversation
18. The little girl who exceeds my expectations
19. Free books
20. Knowing that this counting doesn’t have to be rushed and that it’s OK that I’m taking it slow and easy…counting and life.
Monday, February 14, 2011
The Beginning of Gifts
I have been reading Ann’s blog since November…the first post I read was about Christmas…and the second was on Motherhood. It seemed each time I ventured over to visit with her…I was more and more captivated and more and more moved to tears.
I thought about the book often and often put it out of my head. But, Saturday, when Nate brought the mail in I ran to the comfy couch, the couch where I sat alone and poured the entire first chapter in as fast as I could…and I cried and I cried. I wasn’t expecting it until Monday and the two copies I bought were actually back ordered!
After the first chapter, I realized I needed to slow down. I needed to take it all in…but I really wanted to give thanks. I really wanted to begin this journey of being all here. It wasn’t too long ago I was seeking the contentment and joy that may only be found in giving thanks to Him…the One we owe all our thanks to…
I was reluctant to take the plunge…because I always take plunges…I wondered if I couldn’t just take my time with this. But, when I realized all the things around me and how when you lived the moment you were in that it actually does slow time…and it really does bring you joy.
“…life change comes when we receive life with thanks and ask for nothing to change.” Ann Voskamp
I thought about the book often and often put it out of my head. But, Saturday, when Nate brought the mail in I ran to the comfy couch, the couch where I sat alone and poured the entire first chapter in as fast as I could…and I cried and I cried. I wasn’t expecting it until Monday and the two copies I bought were actually back ordered!
After the first chapter, I realized I needed to slow down. I needed to take it all in…but I really wanted to give thanks. I really wanted to begin this journey of being all here. It wasn’t too long ago I was seeking the contentment and joy that may only be found in giving thanks to Him…the One we owe all our thanks to…
I was reluctant to take the plunge…because I always take plunges…I wondered if I couldn’t just take my time with this. But, when I realized all the things around me and how when you lived the moment you were in that it actually does slow time…and it really does bring you joy.
And so…my list begins… eucharisteo…
1. Books that make me cry
2. A little boy that dances and laughs
3. A little girl who loves her Nana in a special way
4. Butterflies for my husband…
5. An amazing body of believers to worship and fellowship with…
6. Perfect chocolate chip cheesecake
7. Walking away from social networking…to be more where I need to be
8. Expected mail arriving unexpectedly early
9. Unborn baby bottom moving in my belly
10. Quotes…
11. More time to realize I don’t need to be in a hurry
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Lemonade Award
Don’t we just love awards! I’ve received my second from Maddy Brand. Thank you! The Lemonade Award is all about attitude and gratitude. I may be representing a little more attitude than gratitude! So here it is. I’m nominating 10 blogs I think have great attitude and gratitude. A couple of the recipients I chose aren’t much of the award receiving-awarding type…but I wanted you to know I appreciate the great attitude and gratitude you share in your blogs! Take it or leave it! It’s up to you.
The rules for this award:- Put the Lemonade logo on your blog or within your post.- Nominate at least 10 blogs with great attitude or gratitude.- Link the nominees within your post.- Let the nominees know they have received this award by commenting on their blog.- Share the love and link to the person from whom you received this award.
This award is being passed on to:
Abundantly Living
The rules for this award:- Put the Lemonade logo on your blog or within your post.- Nominate at least 10 blogs with great attitude or gratitude.- Link the nominees within your post.- Let the nominees know they have received this award by commenting on their blog.- Share the love and link to the person from whom you received this award.
This award is being passed on to:
Abundantly Living
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